Lena & Kara

Between Us

2008-06-06T04:57:23Z

On the table between
us:

jam, milk, margarine
a vase with fresh
violets

coffee cups
newspaper hands

Kara/ arakha

calender facts

2005-08-24T10:26:34Z

i used to love
a boy whose name
was an anagram
of lie

*

2.2 million
people die annually
from indoor air
pollution

*

she smelt
of anaїs anaїs
and the ocean

Lena ; aureole_ocean

analogies at breaking point, reflected

2004-12-12T08:41:53Z

I imagine my heart like the centre of a mango a week too ripe. Sinking my teeth into the flesh, I taste the rot, sourness. Holding it, giving way underneath my fingertips, strings of pulp get stuck between the teeth. Juice dries on my hands.

I clean up with running water.

Lena [aureole_ocean]

Initia (Graviti)

2004-05-16T05:28:01Z

Need a little sun to get my cool
blood running again,
let a little pain and kisses
suffice. Dug a little grave to
rest in, rest in.

(He keeps stealing my space
and my heart)

Need a touch of midnight,
taste of the moon:
suckling on warm blood
(I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty)
sucking down the evening
again.

We've been running around
in circles and I run, I run
from you (as fast as I can go,
opposite direction).
Searching for strawberries
in a space-age plantation,
seaching for fallen stars
in the mud and the grass.

Need a little river, to fall,
to drown - practicing Ophelia.
Been craving sugar (need a
little sweetness), my mouth's
too fucking sour.

Then your eyes come into
focus. The glare against
pupils - so pretty, so pretty.

kara ; veracious_muse

grass burn

2004-04-22T02:51:08Z

like taste in glass
cut your tongue
bleed in toenails curling
your arched back
trembling

i forfeit the areas
clean-lined
smooth crisp edges
stained cloud
whatever bring you crystalline
hues smudged on your palms

glass on wood
tears, vein systems
rivers at rush run end
.
my unmended sutures
my disconnected phone

lena ; aureole_ocean

Princess in Blue Dress.

2004-04-21T14:47:48Z

I loved you once
(I thought I knew you
once)

The sky will no longer
turn for you
and stars in my heart won't
burn for you
anymore

but Princess, in blue dress,
your absence can still
pierce me
inside

I miss you, I miss you

once we were butterflies
and i thought that you
would fly for me -

now I note with
bitterness
that it was never
your intention

~~kara ; veracious_muse~~

for you (untitled)

2004-03-25T15:31:58Z

"Princess", and we speak in rythm,
your heart is an anchor,
your body the ship.
Made of bruised wings and
strong will you were,
tangents of vanilla and gold.
Love is a pretty lie sometimes
in the evergreen,
untimely and misconceived
(and despite this, unavoidable
in moments).
Free fall from another lost cloud,
static screams loudly and zero is.
(Vain smash the mirror glass.)
Beside you I am ugly, stained;
yet your heart still warms for me,
eyes still cry for me, mouth still
smiles (for me) - however undeservingly.
To be your diamond in a field of gold,
you have placed your value of worth
on me,
you have placed your hold on me,
and for that you cannot leave,
you cannot leave.

~~- kara - veracious_muse~~

the need to memorise

2004-02-06T10:33:14Z

I like being violated.
&the sun sinking on the horizon as a burnt out orange sphere, stinging my eyes.

(splintered fragments connected, making sense of the blue-grey areas lock in lock out my heart a hole that mirrors into the broken lines of your palms)

lena ; aureole_ocean

Windowpane.

2004-01-25T15:03:06Z

she's still alive
because she's been breathing -
got to be worth something

so she lied and she loved you
but she lied, hated you too
sometimes it's all about
being forgiven
but only when you can
taste the guilt

as if you were drowning
in it

i had a year and a half
to count my promises,
still hiding

behind a thousand faces
(even i can't figure out
which one)

she's right, the sheer force of it
is enough to make you die
(but still alive, still alive)
but i could never break down
in front of you

why didn't i cry for her?
you could see it in his eyes, the rage
(oh i saw it in his eyes,
his stance, the force of it)
but love, i was needy too
didn't you know?
i was needy too

on the way home
the sky fell for her,
you smoked cigarettes
and i cried, i cried

~~kara // veracious_muse~~

Maze

2004-01-25T14:59:48Z

just you and i
in this maze

would you sing to me
whisper like you do
hold me with a thousand
tender hands?

forgive me for not
talking,
i can't say a word

don't place me on
a pedestal,
in your eyes
i'll only fall,

just love me at all
if you can

it's just you and i
in this maze,
where everything is
so out of place
but the rest of the world
disintegrates

~~kara // veracious_muse~~

sarah

2004-01-06T01:32:01Z

Your jaundiced eyes make me want to look away but your voices makes me think of heartache as a low, full tear turned flood, easing through the cracks, wide open neck and arched ecstasy

you made an error,
it
stared back at me
(all glares and feigning anonymity)

but, in that moment

you stained a fading chorus black.

lena ; aureole_ocean

versus

2003-12-12T10:30:13Z

My naivety shows probably far more than I’d like it to and I’ve lost words with the same hopeful side-ended repetition. I should start saying what I feel, how it is, but the words erased fall back unreflective of projected attainability. To be successful, one must portray an image of success, and I’d rather work hard cryingcrawlingpretending with unreal satisfaction than bathe in the muted static of expressionless void; mouth shut full (cotton and blood).

lena ; aureole_ocean

Home.

2003-12-05T03:37:46Z

"I can see stars in your eyes",
she said;

and I was ashamed
for it to be that way,
like bruised and swollen stars,
deadly and exposed.

I am a product of my
own distaste,
a product of my own
demise,
and I keep telling you
what you want to hear;
I'm almost into believing
it myself.

They paint their visions
onto the streets,
line the paving with light

but I am caught
in all the
black,
entangled in this
web of mine,

so their colours,
their shades, their life
bounces off me

in a morbid motion.

Torn amongst threads,
I'm choking again,
on you

and inside this decay,
I've crawled home
once again;

I am suicide bait.

~~kara/ veracious_muse~~

darkly; through

2003-12-03T07:30:21Z

you really needn't know
that inside my heart
there's a pitful
of stars, fuming
spewing through
the seams of contradiction

this difficulty
obscured you,
denied you
this much to control
me over your eyes.

lena ; aureole_ocean